Changing...

A few weeks ago, a friend of mine posted on Facebook a song by 'Mercy Me' called 'Wishful Thinking'. The song describes the realization that the way God intended for me to live my life was different from what I use to think and believe.
It wasn't all wrong, just that I had to shift my main focus on Him, rather than being focus on 'how to be a good Christian'.
I first had to learn how to be His child first and foremost. This never ends. Being His child meant I had to be discipled by Him. I had to learn how to be God's child.
Being His child means more than reading my bible, and praying everyday, and going to church. I have been doing that, and still my focus was not completely on Him.
Being His child meant I had to want to be with Him, 24/7. Not just knowing He is with me, but me being with Him. The difference is the focus. When I know He is with me and I am content with that, I don't always focus on Him and what He is saying and teaching me. However, when I am with Him, my complete self-heart, mind, and soul is focus 100% on Him and what He is saying.
I use to think I can only accomplish that in worship times, or in church services, conferences etc. Or a good quiet time. Outside of that, I am doing what I read in the bible, and what I was taught on how to be a good Christian.
But now, when I surrendered how I think, and how I feel, and my right to make my decisions etc, and become yoked with Him, I can't run off to do things my way, or how I think it to be right, because that means coming from inside the yoke. That means that I am no longer with Him.
Being with Him brings change to every little and large area of my life. It is simply amazing and peaceful and restful. 
Being with Him means I wait for His say so to do, think, feel, say, live. I always wait for His leading, for His instructions,  for Him to show me how.  I am always content with just being with Him.
Sounds iresponsible? Lazy? No faith?
I know. I felt those same things too. Still do. I am learning how to deal with all that. It is even worse when you get questioned. The embarrassment, not understanding. .. My comfort is a lot didn't understand Jesus either, and I am yoked with Him, so.... And just check who didn't understand Jesus!
I remain yoked with Him.
Will you?